I have to admit something. 2017 is just not my year. Between two family deaths and some health issues, plus the anxiety leading up to turning 30, I’m just ready to turn the page to 2018! (Or maybe turn back the clock since I’m not in love with the whole aging thing as of this moment.)
I keep making excuses to myself on why I can’t bring myself to blog. The deaths have really blown me off my course and it has taken some time to get myself in the right “spirit” to want to take the time to sit down and compose my thoughts. Beginning on May 1, my bad knee (due to a bike accident in July 2014) started its worst flare up I’ve had (which happens periodically). Normally these flare ups go away after a week or two, but this one has gotten better. In fact, I went for a ride the weekend before Memorial Day and that ride left me unable to bear weight and in excruciating pain for a full week after. That incident led me to re-opening the “can of worms” I had originally been planning on opening during my annual physical in three weeks from now, so the anxiety of going through trying to get a diagnosis has been stressful.
I’ve been working out once a week which is really tough for me. That and the fact that I spend my free time researching medical info really leaves me little desire to do anything else other than lay on the couch and feel sorry for myself. I’m petrified of being told there’s nothing really wrong with me and having zero resolution other than to live with this constant pain. At this point I truly have to anticipate the worst (=no diagnosis) and I have in mind what my next steps will be… basically I’m going to need to find a new hobby because I’m going to have to give up everything I love.
Sorry to be so heavy there, but this has been a tough few months and I just need to get it off my chest. There is some updates on the knee front, though. I got my MRI results back yesterday and the only diagnosis they provided was that I have mild degeneration of my medial meniscus. The last MRI I had, the radiologist apparently “over read” according to two docs, but that one had said I had a minor tear of the medial meniscus and some sprained ligaments (I wish I knew exactly which ones – I know one was the MCL).
This time those ligaments apparently look fine (I thought maybe my MCL was having issues). But, again, I don’t really trust the radiologist after last time so we’ll see what the doc says. At the very least I know that they saw things in my meniscus both times that are minor, so hopefully the pain will force them to go in and clean things up anyway (and hopefully that will make things better, not worse). I can only hope! My next appointment in sadly in two weeks.
Well after that big life update, here are some other things I’ve been doing/loving lately!
Holy cow, the weather has been terrible here in Massachusetts this spring! It’s rained like alllll the time and it’s been cold! We had like one KIND OF nice weekend, but that’s it. But this past weekend was g-o-r-geoussss!! Okay, heat waves aren’t ideal, but the sun is SO ideal. Since I’m rather limited in my options to go outside at the moment, I decided to spend the hot weekend up on the lake at my parent’s in Ossipee, New Hampshire. Time in the sun on the beach, layin’ in my hammock, cruises on the boat… hello summer! Just what the doctor ordered. I may now being sporting a most beautiful sunburn all over because I was atrocious about applying sunscreen, but ah – feels so good to be tan!
Let me share a proud moment: I put in one window air conditioner a few weeks ago when we had a couple of hot days in a row (at that time I was looking around my neighborhood wondering if I was being too aggressive putting it in at the first sign of heat). Tonight, seconds after lugging in my bags from my car, I immediately pulled out my heaviest air conditioner from my porch and installed that baby in my window like a pro. Now my house is (slowly) cooling off from a balmy 78 degrees and is currently sitting at 76 almost an hour later.
Wait, okay, that sounds pretty awful still… but in theory here my house should be cooling off and hopefully I won’t wake up in a pool of sweat. Due to said sunburn, I’ll probably end up taking Benadryl to sleep tonight anyway. I’m holding off on installing the bedroom air conditioner since I don’t really use it too much ever anyway, so TBD on installing that one!
Reading: It’s Not Okay by Andi Dorfman
My friend let me borrow this book – ohhhh last fall or so – and I’m finally reading it. It’s pretty great. Okay, fine, I can’t super relate to some of the breakup advice since I’m notoriously single (and love it). However, I’m getting some inspiration that, now that I’m turning 30, I really should be focused on buying some more timeless, classic, and designer pieces (at a steal, of course)… rather than a wardrobe filled with all the trend-of-the-moment LOFT clothes I own.
Sure, I loveee LOFT, but I feel like I never have anything to wear even though I do? I travel a lot on weekends, so I really need some higher quality pieces that will travel well in my suitcase with me. I also feel like I never have any clothes in general, and I have a billion, so yeah it’s just time to upgrade to a 30-year-old style. (UGH!)
In general, just really loving the behind-the-scenes Bachelor info and looking to read more. I’ll share more insights once I get further into it!
Last Sunday, my very good friend Nicole from college (Quinnipiac!) and my pal Brian got married down in Connecticut. It was a beautiful wedding and it was such a great night. It may have rained, but they made the best of it! I took Monday off of work so I could enjoy a super (super) late night dancing and laughing with my friends. Wishing them all the best in their marriage!
Fun Day at Fenway
Last Wednesday I attended a private event at Fenway Park. We got to enjoy one of the private event spaces and had access to the top of the Green Monster. We also were able to explore some of the field and were able to go into one of the dugouts and got to go right up to the scoreboard (and also get a peek into the area behind it!). It was such a fun event. Thanks, Fenway!
Okay, I’m going to leave this here for now and I promise to check back in again soon. I owe you my thoughts on turning 30!